April 15, 2016 – From Sr. Mary Pat Cook, LCWR Reflective Journal 2015

April 15, 2016 | Posted in For Contemplation

I’ve spent a lot of time with Peter recently. Peter, who gets it, and doesn’t, who jumps in and runs away. Impetuous, enlightened AND clueless, often in-the-dark Peter. Two of his encounters with Jesus capture their relationship – and mine? During that scary storm, Peter initiates: “If it is really you, tell me to come to you across the water.” “Come!” Jesus said. Peter jumps in – with enthusiasm, energy, trust! (I’ve been there!) reality engulfs him – literally. What seemed so clear, so enticingly adventurous, so God’s will is lost in a sense of drowning, of darkness, of absolute fear. (I’ve been there!) “Why did you doubt?” No answer. Is Peter now doubting his commitment, his trust in this One he claims to love? (I’ve been there!) Later comes breakfast on the beach … This time Jesus initiates: “Peter, do you love me?” “You know everything. You know well that I love you.” Is it Jesus who needs to hear Peter’s answer? or Peter? (I’ve been there!) In this Resurrection moment, does Peter hear himself (his true self)? “Lord, you know everything. You know I love you.” (I am here.)

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